I remember this day, 13 years ago.  I was sitting in front of my new computer.  I had no idea what to do - it needed software installed, and the computer guys at work at the corporate job I had just left had always done that stuff for me.  I felt completely helpless.

Its the reality of starting your own business: you get into a world where you’re good enough at some stuff that people are prepared to pay you to do it, but it comes with a whole pile of other stuff you haven’t a clue how to do, but you simply have to figure it out!  I must be a really slow learner, because here I am, 13 years later, still finding stuff I don’t know and trying to figure it out!

I wish I could say that some of those 13 years were easy.  But I can’t. Every one of those years has presented a pile of new challenges to surmount and a hectic learning curve of it’s own.  I can’t remember many months in those 13 years that haven’t presented me with at least a couple of sleepless nights.

But last night I turned my mind to wondering about my children, about when we actually stop worrying about them.  My little boys are 5 and 8 - I can’t go a day without fretting about whether they got picked up from school on time, did they evade the school bully?  ANd I’m terrified my teenager will have his heart broken.  Or crash my car.

And then I realised what the last 13 years of fretting have been.  Avo is another child of mine: 13 years on and it is still such a precious thing for me.  It has helped me build life connections with amazing people, and has generated income that hs helped me achieve my life pupose of empowering people all along that journey.

So I am resigned to never being able to completely turn off the worry about this Avo child of mine.  I’ll take on the frettings as I take on the joy, as I do with all my children.  This one has just become a teenager after all.

Oh, and that computer software….?  I called up my old mates at the corporate IT help desk where I used to work, and asked them to talk me through it.  Haven’t really looked back since then…