When I started working at AVO nearly three years ago, I made a commitment to to blog my journey. It does not matter to any of you whether I share my stories, but I needed something to hold myself accountable to. To keep going when it feels tough to push through.   

It has been some time since I wrote a blog, but the events of this last week have motivated me so much, I am inspired to share them with you. 

At the beginning of last year, I was encouraged by Robin Sharma to be specific about what I wanted to achieve for the year. He spoke about: Developing a strategy, setting up a self-contract, measuring yourself along the way and implementing your dreams (you can check it out in our Feb 09 archives).

I faithfully wrote down my goals, but I was not entirely sure about what steps to take to make them a reality. Did I reach my goals? no I did not. But what I learned was the necessary steps needed to reach those goals. I can now sit down with similar goals and plot the steps I need to take to get there. So were my goals wasted? not a chance!

It was quite a moment when I realized that I was on the road to fulfilling those goals even though I thought I had lost my way. I went back to some of my old journals and revisted the dreams and goals I had visualized for myself and paid little attention to.  I look at where I am right now and realise that I am on the road to the places I want to be. I realize the dreams and goals I had spent authentic time visualizing are the ones I am living!

Jules has always told me to trust the process, the hardest thing for me! Well, looking back at this week; I think life is showing me that I can trust the processes. An interesting question is, what would happen if I had paid a little more attention to those things I had visualized for my life… maybe the journey would have been more invigorating!

Bear with me …

Another event that made me sit up and take notice, came packaged in a movie  “XIII”, a new release from our local video store. A real ‘skop-skit’ movie in the vein of Bourne Identity. The main character gets hurt in a parachuting accident and loses his memory. Quite a frightening experience. A woman he meets proclaims how awesome it is, how differently she would live her life if she could erase the memories of the bad experiences in her life!

Oh my Gosh! I have worked hard in the last two years, to move forward in my life. And yes, I have moved on but the residue still sticks to me, holding me back. I decided to give it a bash and work for one week being conscious about erasing the past, asking myself “how would this moment feel,  if you did this thing without remembering that past?” I felt stronger and more alive, taking more risks which proved successful. I am committing to recognizing when my energy gets stolen by past memories of weakness or failure. I know it is going to take time but if I can reprogram my brain – I think it will produce great results.